How being EP has changed my life....
I’m thinking today about how being EP has changed my life....
Back when I was really into Hillsong and other manmade hymns/worship songs, I would get SO emotional while singing and listening. My feelings would be stirred up by the music and the sound of the song, so much more than the actual words. But I thought that level of emotion and crying meant I was “close to God.”
When I became convicted of EP and stopped using those songs, I really struggled with my affections toward God. I had equated them, to a certain degree, with those emotional highs, crying, etc. rather than a deeper affection rooted in unchanging truth. Now that I didn’t have those “worship songs,” how would I feel that way toward God again?
Even now, I sometimes struggle with it still, “Why don’t I ‘feel’ more love for God?”
But as I sing the Psalms a cappella each day, the Lord has helped me grow in deeper affections for Him that aren’t based on music or fleeting emotion. Manmade hymns don’t have the supernatural power of His Word to change the heart. The Psalms are transformative because it is the Spirit speaking and leading and sanctifying us.
Through them, He shows me Christ’s glory. His beauty. His judgments. That we are His children, His sheep, and in our weakness and dependence, we are held up by His mercy. That it isn’t primarily about me and my feelings, but Him and what He has done, and continues to do for me.
My heart is stirred by the truth of God’s Word, and I long for Christ and to obey Him. He comforts me by His promises, and my affections bloom.
I’m so thankful for the gift of the Psalms. By them He has strengthened and shepherded my heart. He is so good to me. Truly, blessed are the people whose God is the Lord.